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November 12th, 2004
09:32 am - cafeteria computers.bitch.
so....um.yah. i am not one of the posting persuasion(sp?), however, theres nothing to do....and i'm reallly early for school, so i decided to dig my nose out of my regular journal and say hi to you guys(by you guys i mean...pretty much no-one). anyway, it makes me feel like i'm doing something.
ok...wow. this sucks.
things seem pointless, everything pretty much.
i don't even know how to word things anymore.
who gives a shit.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/61.gif) okay
Current Music: long wintersss-capernicus
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September 10th, 2004
09:22 pm - everytime i try to post, i feel suddenly dirty then get up and leave.
so i guess this time is different.
so heres the lowdown.
i had an amazing summer with my lovely wife Marianne, and our faithful companion sir muffalot.
we just sat around and did alot of nothing...but it was somehow amazingly beautiful and fun.
now, everyone has gone to school (myself included....kinda...) and we are left in this baron desert of a town(me and princess muff of wales).
i got my job back at newbury comics, its fantastic and wonderful, the people are great....however i was not able to attend because my car died for the umteenth time today, so i was stranded in hyannis...my stepfather had to get me, but no-one could drive me to work because of.....oh yeah....forgot to tell ya....my brother and his wife are kind of having a baby...tonight....haha...sorry...
anyway, i've had a great time since highschool, except right now i have no money and alot of things that cost money. it stinks...i'll live.
great books i read this summer include...
the miracle of mindfulness-Thich Nhat Hanh
being peace-Thich Nhat Hanh
on the road-Jack Kerouac
the diary of anne frank-Anne Frank
the dhammapada(again)-Buddha
tales of ordinary madness-Charles Bukowski
music:
elliot smith
decemberists
björk
beach boys
beatles
neutral milk hotel
guided by voices
built to spill
nada surf
bobby dylan
so much more....as of right now memory doesnt want to permittttymit.
anyway, i hope for time at school to be nice, i know time at work will be....although i feel super crappy about not being able to come in tonight(on a friday! im such a fucktard.)
anyway, i'll get over it...
oh yah, i got some sweet (long awaited....and so sorely needed) glasses today, they're all buddy holly-ish, they're really cool.
anyway, reply i wanna see how you kids be doin.
cyah guys.
post script:
if i were to play shows again would anyone come?
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: neutral milk hotel- Oh Comely
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August 22nd, 2004
10:57 pm
summer is beautiful. livejournal sucks, but theres nothing else to do so yah.
have fun.
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May 12th, 2004
09:16 am - life.
well, i don't really know where to start, so i'll start with this: .
life is a series of tests of character. i hope i pass. i don't really wanna say whats a' troublin me, but its very hard. i never knew life could get this hard.
love helps.
i can't write anymore. i think it's too much to even try to word...and for that matter, put on paper.
music now helps me, by tiring me out. music used to help by letting me express myself, but i think those days are gone. now i just get so tired trying that i feel a little bit better just cuz i don't have the energy to continue.
i'm sorry to be that person to talk like this on lj, everyone does though, so why not...
anyway...
c'yah guys.
post script:
keep your chin up.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/30.gif) thoughtful
Current Music: elliott smith - gone at last
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April 30th, 2004
10:37 am - "in the dark we'll take off our clothes."
chillin in the library listening to the coolest kid ever--------roy mckay...haaaaaaaababababababababa
anyway, whats new with everyone here?
reply!
im curious...
bye guys!
Current Music: neutral milk hotel-"two headed boy pt 1.
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April 25th, 2004
01:55 am - Why?
Mariannes out dancing tonight, so im sitting inside writing and playing a lil bit, when i stumble upon some Elliott articles.
I've been reading interviews and watching little snippets of his MTV interviews, i truly don't understand why such perfect and immaculate beauty was forced to live in seemingly eternal pain only to be ended in that sort of manner that he had was ended in. Elliott Smith was more amazing and talented than i can perceive. Honestly, he was a tragedy, through and through. I don't know why this is just hitting me now, i mean i was the one who told Marianne about his suicide. For some reason this is just hitting me now though, and it hurts. I wish i got to talk to him so bad, so very bad.
Current Mood: extremely sad
Current Music: Elliott Smith - Angeles
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April 22nd, 2004
01:59 am - OH MY GOD, i hate chuck.
newwaveposer (12:11:12 AM): heyyy, yah know where muff
issssssssss, i gotta ask him a quick question
iamCHuckmaclean (12:11:28 AM): I just dropped him off
newwaveposer (12:11:40 AM): ahhh....altight, thanks
newwaveposer (12:11:43 AM): hey
newwaveposer (12:11:53 AM): i know what your hours are today
newwaveposer (12:12:00 AM): wait, that came out so wrong
iamCHuckmaclean (12:12:02 AM): and?
newwaveposer (12:12:16 AM): heres a general jist
newwaveposer (12:12:26 AM): i know your
newwaveposer (12:12:48 AM): i know you're working thursday like
5-9
newwaveposer (12:12:57 AM): friday 5-10 i think
newwaveposer (12:13:12 AM): sat. you're working 6-10 i think
newwaveposer (12:13:19 AM): and he may give you some sundays
iamCHuckmaclean (12:13:21 AM): Dude are you fukcing serious i told
that foriegn dumbass that i could not work thursday
newwaveposer (12:13:32 AM): i know, not this thursday
newwaveposer (12:13:38 AM): calm down bug guy
iamCHuckmaclean (12:13:39 AM): oh ok
newwaveposer (12:13:41 AM): big*
newwaveposer (12:13:52 AM): i toughin it out by myself this week
iamCHuckmaclean (12:13:59 AM): Yeah im sure that sux
iamCHuckmaclean (12:14:05 AM): You'll be in the car the whole time
newwaveposer (12:14:14 AM): nah, people love me, i get loads of cash
newwaveposer (12:14:24 AM): tonight i did 4 deliveries made 25
bucks
iamCHuckmaclean (12:14:33 AM): Good for you
newwaveposer (12:14:42 AM): yes, it certainly is.
newwaveposer (12:14:49 AM): anyway, can i call muff this late?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:15:01 AM): hahaha have you ever been over
his house
newwaveposer (12:15:03 AM): or should i not...
newwaveposer (12:15:12 AM): yes, i'm pretty sure i have
newwaveposer (12:15:17 AM): and why is that?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:15:23 AM): Have you met his family
newwaveposer (12:15:33 AM): ok man, you know i have
newwaveposer (12:15:40 AM): i just don't know if his mom will care or
not
newwaveposer (12:15:47 AM): i get mixed signals from her
iamCHuckmaclean (12:15:48 AM): I doubt it
newwaveposer (12:15:58 AM): doubt she'll care?
newwaveposer (12:16:15 AM): or doubt i can call?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:16:27 AM): Well then again you have to bank
on the fact that he probably wont pick up the phone
newwaveposer (12:16:35 AM): hahaha, yah
iamCHuckmaclean (12:16:40 AM): So you're probably gonna wake
her up, and she will care about that
newwaveposer (12:16:40 AM): i think im gonna chance it
iamCHuckmaclean (12:16:41 AM): So dont
newwaveposer (12:16:48 AM): yah, good point
newwaveposer (12:16:51 AM): ill call him tomorrow
newwaveposer (12:16:59 AM): whatd you boys do tonight?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:17:08 AM): Or just wait the five minutes for
him to come online
iamCHuckmaclean (12:17:11 AM): played cards
newwaveposer (12:17:17 AM): for cash?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:17:23 AM): yeah
newwaveposer (12:17:28 AM): who won?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:17:48 AM): In a surprising turn of logic Mike
by 2 dollars, but then again he pussied out from dueling
with me at the end
newwaveposer (12:17:58 AM): hahaha, nice
newwaveposer (12:18:01 AM): texas hold?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:18:09 AM): One of the games
newwaveposer (12:18:15 AM): what else?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:18:30 AM): Tj, Molinario, and Pat Conaway
newwaveposer (12:18:46 AM): conaways a cool kid
iamCHuckmaclean (12:18:51 AM): Tj and pat basically handed mike
and i twenty dollars
newwaveposer (12:18:54 AM): hes rediculously nice
iamCHuckmaclean (12:18:56 AM): yeah he's a good shit
newwaveposer (12:19:00 AM): hahahaha thats so funny
newwaveposer (12:19:17 AM): i thought pat and tj and you were like
enemies...?
newwaveposer (12:19:57 AM): ..
iamCHuckmaclean (12:20:39 AM): Not really TJ, i fucking hate pat,
but then again easy money changed my mind
newwaveposer (12:20:55 AM): hahh, you're such an asshole man
iamCHuckmaclean (12:21:18 AM): Really? Is that how people see
me?
newwaveposer (12:21:26 AM): hahhh
newwaveposer (12:21:39 AM): so chuck, do you hate me?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:22:03 AM): Yeah, probably if i thought about it
newwaveposer (12:22:23 AM): you crack me up man
newwaveposer (12:22:32 AM): im so dissapointed that you got the job
iamCHuckmaclean (12:22:41 AM): haha, yeah i know
newwaveposer (12:22:53 AM): then again it seems that it will prove to
be interesting
iamCHuckmaclean (12:23:09 AM): Yeah exactly
newwaveposer (12:23:15 AM): so how's it working out?....trying to be
a prep and all?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:23:34 AM): Come agian?
newwaveposer (12:23:49 AM): you trying to be a prep and all, hows
that working out?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:24:12 AM): I don't know, how's you and the
whole Thursday look going?
newwaveposer (12:24:23 AM): whats a thursday look?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:24:38 AM): Lead singer from Thursday, look
in the mirror
newwaveposer (12:24:51 AM): k, i will, i've never seen him before
newwaveposer (12:24:57 AM): but ill try and imagine
iamCHuckmaclean (12:25:00 AM): That's cool
newwaveposer (12:25:11 AM): and im not talking about how you dress
iamCHuckmaclean (12:25:20 AM): Don't really care
newwaveposer (12:25:32 AM): how you try to be friends with all of
them, and consequently act like them
iamCHuckmaclean (12:25:42 AM): You don't know me at all, so
you're half assed assumptions through Mike have no
effect on me
newwaveposer (12:25:54 AM): true that i don't know you at all
newwaveposer (12:26:11 AM): i know what i hear, and with a person
like you, i am very comfortable going by what i hear
newwaveposer (12:26:38 AM): theres a bunch of people who say thats
what you're trying to be
newwaveposer (12:26:45 AM): i was just wondering how its going
iamCHuckmaclean (12:26:55 AM): That's good, cause i really care
what some halfwit cafe singer thinks of me
newwaveposer (12:27:18 AM): hahahaha, thats funny, i play there 3
times and i'm a halfwit cafe singer
newwaveposer (12:27:32 AM): you came to see me, you asshole
newwaveposer (12:27:41 AM): on more than one occasion as well
iamCHuckmaclean (12:27:52 AM): That's funny, you hear things from
people i probably haven't seriously talked to in three
months and i am trying to be prep
iamCHuckmaclean (12:28:07 AM): Yeah i know, it was funny seeing
your friend get shot down by your cousin
newwaveposer (12:28:21 AM): hahaha, and when did that happen?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:28:35 AM): maybe the first time i went?
newwaveposer (12:29:05 AM): i doubt it, they went oout for like a year
and change, there wasnt much shooting down....and not
at the shows i beleive
newwaveposer (12:29:16 AM): and thats not a reason to go and see
me, just to let ya know
iamCHuckmaclean (12:29:32 AM): Oh it was probably just the double
cross bullshit your cousin always has spewing out of her
mouth
iamCHuckmaclean (12:29:37 AM): It is for me
newwaveposer (12:30:27 AM): you are so rediculous and relentless
newwaveposer (12:30:31 AM): you make no fucking sense
iamCHuckmaclean (12:30:41 AM): Kid
iamCHuckmaclean (12:30:42 AM): Are
iamCHuckmaclean (12:30:44 AM): You
iamCHuckmaclean (12:30:46 AM): serious
newwaveposer (12:30:49 AM): you have no points and try to sidetrack
all over the place
newwaveposer (12:30:56 AM): yah
iamCHuckmaclean (12:31:00 AM): hahahah cause i need to make a
point with you
iamCHuckmaclean (12:32:05 AM): Tell me Scott, what the fuck is
your point then, in this o so deep conversation
newwaveposer (12:33:46 AM): first of all this is probably the most
shallow conversation i've ever had in my life, and
second, my point is that you're a hate-filled asshole that
has gone farther down hill than anyone cares to follow, i
was just confirming what i've been hearing so it wasn't all
speculation
iamCHuckmaclean (12:34:06 AM): hahahahhaha
iamCHuckmaclean (12:34:13 AM): How have i gone down hill
iamCHuckmaclean (12:34:18 AM): I am fifth in my class
newwaveposer (12:34:24 AM): look at yourself
newwaveposer (12:34:28 AM): i mean as a person
iamCHuckmaclean (12:34:31 AM): I have a free ride to college
iamCHuckmaclean (12:34:49 AM): Hmm i hang out with the kids who
would kill for me
newwaveposer (12:34:50 AM): thats great, i'm sure that you're very
happy chuck
newwaveposer (12:34:59 AM): and who's that?
iamCHuckmaclean (12:35:08 AM): Flaherty, Molinario and Conaway
iamCHuckmaclean (12:35:13 AM): and McCormack
newwaveposer (12:35:51 AM): im not even gonna respond to that, cuz
im sure 2 out of 5 wouldn't
iamCHuckmaclean (12:35:59 AM): HAHA who
newwaveposer (12:36:02 AM): hahaha 2 out of 4
newwaveposer (12:36:13 AM): no chuck, im not saying anything about
them
iamCHuckmaclean (12:36:30 AM): hahaha cause its just behind my
back bs that i know is just them blowing off steam
newwaveposer (12:36:51 AM): yah, its the ones that talk behind your
back who will take the bullet
newwaveposer (12:37:36 AM): chuck, even your best friend doesnt
really like you anymore
iamCHuckmaclean (12:37:41 AM): I can tell you right now that most
likely it was Conaway and Flaherty that said that to you,
probably at your lunch table and yes i am farely
confident that they would
iamCHuckmaclean (12:37:46 AM): Whose that Mike?
newwaveposer (12:37:53 AM): yes, mike
iamCHuckmaclean (12:37:57 AM): HAHAHA
iamCHuckmaclean (12:38:01 AM): I don't even call mike anymore
newwaveposer (12:38:10 AM): yah, you're too cool
newwaveposer (12:38:14 AM): forgot
iamCHuckmaclean (12:38:39 AM): ....you are the dumbest fucking kid
ever
newwaveposer (12:38:47 AM): yah, i am
iamCHuckmaclean (12:38:48 AM): I don't call mike because i don't
want to call mike
iamCHuckmaclean (12:39:07 AM): I don't want to hang out with him
newwaveposer (12:39:07 AM): yah, as i said before, because you're
too cool
iamCHuckmaclean (12:39:15 AM): Yeah, that makes a lot of sense
iamCHuckmaclean (12:39:31 AM): My social status really dictates
what i want to do with my nights
newwaveposer (12:39:44 AM): well friend, marianne just called so i am
out
newwaveposer (12:39:54 AM): hahaha, yah man, have fun.
iamCHuckmaclean (12:39:56 AM): C-Ya at work pal
newwaveposer (12:40:02 AM): chuck, i love you.
newwaveposer (12:40:21 AM): and....i'd die for you.
iamCHuckmaclean (12:40:30 AM): I would say the same back but if
Neil Hunt found out i'd be embarassed
iamCHuckmaclean (12:40:36 AM): Really Scott? WOULD YOU
WRITE A SONG FOR ME?
newwaveposer (12:40:45 AM): yes chuck, i would.
iamCHuckmaclean (12:40:53 AM): You are too cute in those too tight
shirts man
newwaveposer (12:41:16 AM): it would be lovely.....full of daiseys and
roses and bubbling creeks that whisper your name in the
spring air
newwaveposer (12:41:24 AM): i think its funny to see fat kids in tight
shirts
newwaveposer (12:41:48 AM): and i really havent been wearin many
lately, winter was too cold for them
newwaveposer (12:42:02 AM): they're coming back soon
though, don't you worry lovely.
iamCHuckmaclean (12:42:17 AM): OH believe me i am
not
newwaveposer (12:42:33 AM): booyah, well the phone
calls.
newwaveposer (12:42:36 AM): adios
iamCHuckmaclean (12:42:47 AM): C-ya space cowboy
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April 6th, 2004
09:19 am - shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
hi all. i'm stressing, hardcore. i have orchestra today, i'm playing upright bass, I DONT KNOW HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i don't know how to read music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i didnt practice, theres a concert next week, what the fuck do i do!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!? FUCKKKKKK i have a math quiz today, im gonna bomb. FUCK ME!
im shitted outta lucked.
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Current Music: death cab for cutie - styrofoam plates
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April 5th, 2004
10:07 am - but i don't waaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnaaaaaaaaaa
i really don't feel like updating much.
life is good
life is troublesome
marianne is coming home friday.
FUCK YES!
i love her with all my hearty heart.
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March 25th, 2004
04:24 pm
It's funny how it all happens so fast.
And the one you love always changes last.
The picture on t.v. isn't so clear to me.
So tired of their lies, their temporary highs.
Some of them I knew from so long ago.
Since emerged the side of them that they never chose to show.
Everyone makes the trip; some more some less, but all just to be hip.
If I was to travel forward in time from my childhood to see what we were to be, I would've killed myself before i became "me".
The desires of this day and age make me want to tear this very page.
But i refrain, as I do with anything worth saving.
----------------------------------------------------
(one more....sorry)
The city fell into itself.
Horns constantly crying, smoke ever rising.
The sky was darkened; even the sun was gone.
No-one knew what to think of it.
The babies screamed their mothers,
the mothers lay dead in their protection.
The rubble is smouldering, buildings still falling.
Gaslines are flaming, and we watch from our room.
We know that the end isn't near anymore. Now it's here.
As we took the pills we stared into ourselves, the building shook, we died before we fell.
Remember the fall.
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March 23rd, 2004
09:25 am - adfgl;ajglkfj
i am so excited, this weekend i am going to see marianne. i really am so fucking excited.
marianne, i love you so much.
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March 18th, 2004
09:09 am - badabadabummmbababa
You Are Pagoda! Through your occupation, you have
become part of the Tenenbaum family. For a
while, you had been loyaly acting as a spy for
Royal, but once everything was worked out, you
were welcomed back into the family again. Your
best line in the film? Probably "He has
the cancer."
Which ROYAL TENENBAUMS Character Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
i AM pagoda. bitch.
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March 15th, 2004
09:37 am - ba dum.
sitting in web design, wishing i was with marianne. im so bored, wow. i have just had the best week ever, it was absolutely amazing, we had the best time. class is going to end soon.
i'm writing elizabeth stuff now, so thats great....as well as preta, preta fucking rocks.
quizzey quiz quiz.
What are your thoughts on your parents?
What is your favorite thing to do?(in the whole wide world)
What is your most listened to band/cd at the moment?
What color are your feet?
and finally...
What is your favorite movie?(thats such an original one, i know)
im so bored that i must resort to things like this for entertainment. shoooot me now.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/56.gif) curious
Current Music: the decemberists- song#10
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March 5th, 2004
10:29 am - smells like keilbasa.
sitting in the library....it smells in this part of the library...not to be mean, but the sped class is around me.....i honestly think that could be it.
anyway, whats new?...im bored. preta practice today! i cant wait. im soooooooooooooooo bored.
k, here we go...lil quizeey quiz.
what is your favorite color?
your favorite animal?
your middle name?
your lifelong dream?
your imaginary pets name?
and finally
your color of the carpet in the room you are in.
i hope you pass..
MARIANNE COMES HOME TONIGHT!
i am in painful anticipation.
i can't wait.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/41.gif) excited
Current Music: the "sped" class yelling "KEILBASA!!!!" at some poor kid.
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March 3rd, 2004
09:20 am - !
had the funnest week ever, bright eyes show wasnt too great due to lack of band, and a drunk conor, erin is a cool kid, ddr&kill was great, little overdone by the amazing cocksuckers, but otherwise great. hung out with muff and scott alot, twas very fun. PRETA is going very very strong, we are a force to be reckoned with....looking for a job....:(......cosmonaut is doing well, advancing fast.
marianne in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
elizabeth is coming, watch for shows at the java.
www.elizabeth.i8.com or www.elizabethmusic.cjb.net
i love you.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/59.gif) bouncy
Current Music: iron and wine....#4
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March 1st, 2004
09:41 am - hmmmm
a weird thought came over me today.
military?
it surprised me too, i don't know, just a thought.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/marcus/beheadedboy/113.gif) blank
Current Music: the horrible html loop my teacher listens to constantly
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February 29th, 2004
01:04 pm - greatest hits
greatest hits cd's can suck my balls. they are cds full of radio hits that are bought by assholes that are too lazy to actually explore a band's sounds. a true teenybopper's move. the 80's are cool....lets go with a band from donnie darko....muahaha. evil scott emerges, and yah with greatest hits cd's bands always take 1 or 2 of their new songs and throw em on even though theres no way in hell they could ever be greatest hits...cough cough...the cure.....cough...asses, its depressing to see bands reduced to this.
as soon as a band releases a greatest hits album that means that they are finished. done and done.
i love you marianne.
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February 26th, 2004
09:58 am - hiii
sitting in web design, so many people are taking the p&b busses to the funeral...people that are dressed in plain clothes and don't know the kids...just to get out of school. wow, a new low
COSMONAUT NOW IS:
nutty nick melcher
smelly scott danek
scott mckeown(god)
jordan "has a vagina" melcher
and introducing.....
MIKE LOVELY.
booooyah
we have a singer, and you dont.
suck that mind fed violence.....our violence is fed by minds....greeeaaaattttt name. assholes.
anyway yah, cosmonaut is now officially ready top annihilate.
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February 25th, 2004
09:54 am - in school again.
sitting in school again. so bored....mariannes in class, she cant really talk but stays on aim...so its a huge tease.
i think i reignited an old spark of a confliict with....someone recently...his name will stay anonymous...........oooh..lets call him p kemmet.....wait, to obvious...how bout paul k?......hah.
how is everyones lives?
reply.
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February 24th, 2004
09:06 am
in web desing waiting for marianne to sign on
marianne, i cant wait till next friday, i love you.
preta practice today
i love you marianne
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